I’m starting to compose my 2012 playlist
the music i listen to tends to preserve the moods and emotions of that specific time
so far i’m starting off 2012 with:
and the memories that swell up are all moments of struggle and despair in architecture studio - slaving away, counting down to the last day of that segment of my life, giving the east boston elementary project every ounce of willpower i’ve got.
this is the first time since i started doing end-of-year playlists that my memories aren’t overwhelmingly dominated by a romantic relationship.
most of the songs we hear today are love songs,
but i wonder if those songs can inherently be transcendental or only when experienced in the context of our sinuous lives -
i’ve been told not to listen to sad music when i’m feeling sad
but i know it’s a way of coping,
at my most lonely moments,
to find an empathetic embrace in music -
i’m thankful i didn’t have to deal with a heartbreak this year
but i almost wish i did,
so a “someone like you” can shake me and cradle me.